I definitely didn't have a bad experience in high-school. Was I mopey and needy? Yeah but so were 89% of the girls, so I wasn't alone. Did I have a boyfriend? Um... well actually thinking back on it- for almost half of it I did.. so I guess I shouldn't complain there... Did I have a social life? Yes. And I think that's what I miss. I know that people still invite me to things now but either a) I can't come, literally, can't I always have work to do, always or b) I end up going and I don't enjoy myself because I don't feel like I have a lot of 'common ground' with people anymore.
I also feel like the dynamics were different then, I had more free time, and I had way less responsibility. Now I am always constantly 'serious' (Not that I was ever really "goofy" in my opinion) and thinking about the next step. Also- I used to be more "go with the flow" and just do things or say things just so that it didn't cause an argument but somewhere along the line I've 'grown a pair' and don't do that as much anymore. And I guess another things that bothers me- is when I hang out with people now, I feel like I am just "there". My mind is always on something else- and I feel like I'm either not wanted or not liked at all now. Which is weird because in high school I seriously believed that no one could dislike me because I didn't have a strong enough personality to really bug anyone.
Anyway- that's totally not the point of this. I was looking through the very FEW pictures I have tagged of myself in high school and I thought I'd post them here in case a) you've never seen them and you're curious or b) to remind you of some of the good times. :)
One of the big "drama" areas was who was going to take me. The guy above (my "husband" Zach, not to be confused with my now fiance, Zach, two totally different people) wanted to go with this one girl- but she said no to him. And then this other guy, who we'll call Frank for simplicity asked me. But before he asked me I already knew that he wanted to REALLY go with B ... or C... I can't remember who was "#1" But if B was like #1, then C was #2, and I was #3 or as he liked to call it "Plan C"- haha. It's not that big of a deal now- but at the time he couldn't figure out why I'd be offended at being "plan C". As it is- I ended up going with my "husband" Zach. I'm not even sure how or if he asked me all I know is that we went together!
<3 Thanks for reading.