Major Stress

Pun intended.

Has it ever happened to anyone else that they sit down and think about their major, or their career path in life, and realize that they don't even like it? I've been having that problem a lot lately. And when I'm honest with myself, I have to wonder if anyone in the accounting field ever liked being in school for it. Of the business majors, we're the most demanding. This isn't an opinion, it's a fact. While every other business major requires 15-18 credits worth of upper level, major specific, courses the accounting degree requires 33. Yes, I know, that's almost twice as many.

It's not even that it's just a demanding amount of courses that we have to take, it's the faculty and staff. The upper-level faculty and staff take themselves so seriously, and maybe they've earned it, but when every member of the accounting staff sits there and tells your horror stories about how hard this is, and how hard that is, and about how you'll have your ass handed to you if you make even the smallest mistake, it's intimidating. Not that they shouldn't be honest with you, but if you're going to be honest, be honest about everything. Clearly there must be osmething pleasent about the profession or you wouldn't have entered it to begin with.

It's just so stressful. As I've mentioned a bajillion times before, the Intermediate II class (which, by the way, is harder than advanced, GO FIGURE) I'm in this semester is really demanding. And I feel like it's not a class I can work hard and get ahead in, sot hat I can sit back and have a full day off from thinking about accounting. I just feel like I have to constantly be reading this, or typing up journal entires for that, and while I am a hard worker, I also really need time to just think about other things. And I feel like that is completely natural. However, I'm not sure if it's the way my group works on things but I feel like I'm forced to be ontop of everything and everyone. I don't like it.

Then on top of it being demanding it's not really particularly interesting. I loved my Cost Accounting class last semester because it felt like accounting that was useful to everyone. Everyone needs to know when something is unprofitable, and if getting rid of it is going to harm them more than they would expect. It's in my opinion "The Business Owner's Accounting" but the Financial and Tax accounting, it's taking care of details. It's making sure that the right amount of "money" is put in one place or another. And it gets complicated.... And sometimes you just feel like you know nothing because there are things that you just can't think to ask yourself about a situation. So then you've done everything wrong.

It's just stressful. I really question whether I'm doing the right thing majoring in this. I love working with money and finding out the best way to create something out of nothing (interest), and business ownership. And I really do think that it's one of the best fields to go into if you ever want to own a business, because it forces you to know everything about how businesses work. But at the end of the day, I really don't feel like I like the classes. I mean, you can't really make accounting fun, you can't make it interesting.

I really don't know anymore. I am incredibly envious of people who get to take electives, and classes simply because they're interested in them.

Friday Thoughts

#1- I wore a pair of tan wedges today that I got from Target this past fall. I love them, but they're an awkward color that doesn't match much. Also, they inconsistently give me blisters. Apparently today is one of those day they give me blisters. Guess I'll be  putting on my crocs when I get home.

#2- I hate whiney bloggers and people who post their whole lives "drama" on faceook. But there is someone in my life who no matter what they do just upsets me in some way lately.

#3- I am in such a bummed out mood today that all I want to do is go to bed when I get home. but I have so much stuff to do this weekend that I can't really afford to give myself a stress free day. Awesome. I can't wait for this semester to be over. I wasn't ready to come back for hte Fall semester after 3 months off, so I'm certainly not ready for this one after only one month off.

#4- Part of my stress is that I'm afraid there are things I just won't think to do for my BAM assignment. It's supposed to simulate a real life accountants work, and I'm  just afraid there will be stuff that I don't remember to do. Or things I just don't know how to do. I am really good at doing well on tests... but I just feel like when it comes to applying things I couldn't possibly ever succeed in the real world. Gee- I hope that my internship boss doesn't see this. I'm sure he'd be regretting his decision to take me as an intern.

#5- I have on a coral color sweater today, which I picked out because bright colors are supposed to make you happy. However, I don't think it's working. Whoever created this whole bright color = happiness theory may have neglected some pertinant variables.

#6- I didn't manage to get myself up at 5:30 like I wanted to this morning. My alarms went off on my phone, my computer alarm got off. I said oh I just want to shut my eyes a few more seconds.. and it was 7:15. I hate when I do that. I guess I'll just do my power yoga tomorrow morning.

#7- I'm not sure if I want it to snow tomorrow anymore. I have so much I want to get done, that I feel like it will impede things. I don't know. I feel like even if it doesn't snow that I don't have enough time to do everything I need to do. And I'm sure you're thinking "Well Emily, Stop blogging" but I'm only blogging because mymind needs to do something "mindless" for a while. I was just trying to read my business law text book, and I got so confused with all the sections of the SEC law that apply to accountants that I had to give up.

#8- Speaking of business law, I thought it would be about the laws that businesses have to comply with and all that other stuff. So far the chapter I'm reading is instructing me about all the millions of different ways and reasons I could potentially get sued. This is really rather frightening.

#9- I think I am going to paint my nails "It's all Greek to Me" by OPI this weekend.

#10- I am friends with way too many people that I don't actually like... does anyone else have that problem? I have no idea what to do about it, but it seems rude to just delete all the people I don't really like from my life... they might notice.. and then they wouldn't like me :P